I heard this somewhere the other day, and was immediately brought back to a time when I thought this could be the best song I have ever heard in my entire life.



I'm at home in bed, tired as shit. Sandra and I fulfilled our goal of making it to Queen St on the morning of Boxing Day. We didn't manage to leave as early as we did last year (7 am) but still made it just in time to beat the masses.

I wasted no time and busted out my serious sale shopping skills, weaving through crazy women and picking up everything I liked. I found a dress I might wear for NYE but it may just end up being my contingency plan if the sequin mini is a no go.

I also bought the nicest gym bag and thanks to dad I have a pair of training gloves that will help prevent my hands from becoming consumed by calluses.

I'm not really the type of girl that sees shopping as a kind of therapeutic event, but today - or this morning rather - definitely got my mind off things.

After shopping we hooked up with Mat and indulged in massive amounts of sushi at a local joint that really impressed me for an all-you-can-eat.

Now I'm a mix between exhausted and apprehensive. I think I'm apprehensive because I want the year to be over already. I was informed by my cousin that he will be bringing Absinthe to the party, which has me a little concerned lol but I think it'll be a great night.

Happy Holidays everyone.. some photos to come!



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i made amazing carrot cake w/ faux cream chese icing....soo good. cannot wait for bill to try it.

- i am currently OBSESSED with radiohead's in rainbows album. i only liked it before, but with most brilliant music i tend to be delayed in my appreciation

- after a 2 day hiatus, i'm back on the fitness circuit. i experienced a small taste of what could happen if you let yourself go a little too much.. riesling, port, cab franc, beefeater and beer all in.. 1 hour?

- i made the greatest sunny side up eggs this morning and came to the conclusion that i am no longer the most undomestic female on the planet. sandra's dinner party on monday will be the ultimate test of my culinary abilities

- i have all my holiday outfits ready to go, and didn't spend a penny. i have way too many unworn dresses that need to see daylight before i forget they even exist in my closet - the nikon is also fired up

- i'm actually really excited for the winter olympics. my friend garry was given the opportunity to run with the torch this morning and i think that is bloody amazing - i've always carried this strange perception of compeitive sports where it's just so much pressure and all it takes is one fuck up and you're through.. no olympics, no career.. kudos to these people and their determination

- i'm desparate for a trip.. anywhere.. whenever i see a plane my heart sinks because i know it will be a while before i get my chance again. a good friend of mine from australia is in brazil and i swear to you i was so close to booking a flight right after new years. i think the only thing that stopped me were his crazy stories and comparison of sao paulo to GTA3

- i found out i have to TA biology 1A03 again.. FUCK...

- etc.

it's friday evening and i am so beat. hungover, tired, sore, drained, tired, really tired. i hope i don't submit to the binge eat/drink fest characteristic of the holidays. when it comes to food or alcohol, discipline is almost nonexistent.



kick ass metric c/o spadro


peace

i want to be happy for you. and i am.
but it's hard.

After a semester in Sheridan's Advertising Management Program i've learned a lot about myself. Not only have I realized how vastly different my work ethic is in comparison from my four years at McMaster, but my role as a team member is somewhat a reflection of a team leader (I'm not trying to be boastful, I'm just more confident in myself now =). In every group porject I have been assigned to, I have helped manage to 'lead' teams in organization and creativity because no one else is willing to step up. Unlike my passive self at McMaster, I now have more confidence in myself in my ability to lead and my ability to be more active and engaged with the material i'm learning. It could be because I'm a lot more passionate about what I'm learning - but all I have to say, is that this path I'm on right now to self discovery is one that I'm really liking.

Life has been a complete rollercoaster. At the end of tomorrow, I'll be at the half way mark of my graduate program and six months from now, who knows where I'll be. I'm thinking of teaching abroad? Backpacking through Europe? Who knows what's in store.


***

I was watching CNN's Heroes a couple of weeks back and was inspired by the selfless acts young people from the first world were doing for those in the third. It kind of got me thinking about my place in society and how I'm being trained to assist, I guess you could say, the excess spending of today's consumer culture. I felt pretty bad and to this day, I feel like I need to do more to help those who are less fortunate. I live in a country who provides endless opporuntities to better myself. I realize now that the things I have are things that I don't even really need. So, being content with myself and recognizing that if I really want something I can buy it myself,

If you plan on getting me a Christmas gift, please just make a charitable donation in my name.

I don't need anything new but there are millions out there who need the things that are necessary to survive and don't have any means of attaining them. Food, shelter, clean water, and education. I've got all that and I'm content with the things I have in my life.


Maybe consider this when you guys make your Christmas wishlists.

it's now half past 7 and i've been at mac for about an hour. waking up at 5 in the morning was almost a surreal experience, probably because i forgot that time existed. needless to say the drive to school was perfect and i'm proud of my newfound ability to function at the break of dawn (or in this case in pitch dark) without caffeine in my body. today is a busy day: two Christmas parties and the NRB open house. the reason why i'm here so early, however, has nothing to do with any of those things but is more so related to my affinity for poorly timed biology experiments.

on a better note it looks like snow has finally come, albeit in small increments but the point is it's here. i realized last night that i had absolutely no new boarding gear (jacket, goggles, snow pants, hat, anything else wardrobe-related). i'm debating as to whether or not i should just buy it all now or wait until boxing day when stuff gets cheap. speaking of shopping, ally and i finally made it back to vv the other night and it was the worst thrift experience we've had in a while. i couldn't tell if i lost my eye for vintage or if it was just a bad day. ironically i was also at value to not only find nice things for myself but to also check to see if there were any ugly sweaters for next week's kris kringle. there must have been 500+ hideous pieces but nothing festive. kris from work offered this blue and white snowflake cardi with metal clasps at the front. enough to be a winner? we'll see.

more later.